Changes...

They are one of my least favourite things.

But sometimes they are extremely necessary.

My husband moved out of our home last month, and I have been busy adjusting to single motherhood.  I’ve been distracting myself with helping Sadie through it all.  I’ve also been distracting myself with grand ideas and daydreams of my future.  It has to be bright, doesn’t it?  Isn’t there some kind of guarantee at birth?  I’m pretty sure I heard that somewhere.

I took to living on my own surprisingly quickly.  I thought 11 years would have stunted me somehow, but it seems the last few years did enough *magic* to make living alone kind of like heaven; no compromising, my kitchen stays clean and shiny, no uncomfortable silences or wishing I knew what someone was thinking, no way-too-long conversations about why it isn’t working and what can we do to fix it.  It’s nice, being able to just be, free of judgement or expectation.  And I like having the bed all to myself too.

There’s even been some knitting.  A lot of knitting actually.  Accessory knitting!  Couldn't tell you why, but every time I knit a sweater, I don’t wear it.  I want to, I mean to, and then I sell it or give it or donate it to someone who actually will wear it, not just plan to one day.  But the one thing I do wear is accessories - scarves, cowls, hats, mittens, love them!   So that’s what I am doing – stashing away accessories for the upcoming Fall and Winter.  This one doesn’t have a name, but she will soon.

 

It's a beautiful cashmere lace weight yarn, Diamond Ecco Cashmere, knitted up with panels of 'elevator lace'.  (That's not really a term at all, but when I charted it and knitted it, it reminded me of the gates that pull across old elevators, a la Nero Wolfe.)  There are some sweet scallops and the icord edging that I am so fond of, knitted along with the scarf so there is minimal finishing required.  And just as soon as she has a name, a pattern will be published!

Cheers to bright futures, and warm necks!  Oh what the hell, cheers to changes too!

Comments

[winifred]

I found you through Ravelry when I was looking for shawl patterns. I do hope that things are improving. I can't imagine what you're going through but I wish you well and hope the future has many blessings in store for you.

[Nancy Miller]

I am a Grandmother--What you are going through now is a scene that has been played out twice in the last year in my family--it is difficult and there is pain but I found your words to be a beautiful insight and my wishes go with you for continued strength and creativity--I can't wait for your new scarf pattern-it is just lovely.

[twinsetjan]

I came here having just bought a few of your wonderful patterns on Etsy. You've clearly got the talent and brainpower to come through this life change ahead of the game. All the best!

[Evelyn]

I miss your blog posts and am happy to see you back although sorry to hear that life's changes have been less than easy. I wish you bright days from her on out. Your new design looks wonderful and I can't wait to see it published.

[Vivianne]

I remember the relief when my 1st husband left - it was like a stone rolling from my back: liberation is scarey, but worth it. xx

[Mags]

Oh dear, that's no good! I'm glad your happier for it though. Cheers indeed!

[Connie]

I'm sorry, Jennifer, that's tough. But here's to bright futures! Change can sometimes be very very good, even if the process through which it's achieved is unpleasant. Congratulations on your new life! And I can't wait to see your new designs.